Thursday, June 3, 2010

that one thing.

what is that book where there are twin boys, and one of them finds this place where time goes super fast and he goes there for a year but when he comes out less than a day has passed? i really can't remember the title. but i'm pretty sure its assigned to everyone in middle/high school. well anyways, i've always wanted to find a place like that. so i can just go away for a while and make myself perfect, and when i come back to the real world everything will have stayed the same and i'll be able to pick back up right where i left off. thats a huge fantasy of mine. i want it to happen so bad sometimes. if there was a way i could just pause everything, and just work on me, and then come back to the world, i would do it in a heartbeat. but there isn't. the world waits for no one. fucking selfish world. but i feel like thats what i need right now. i just need to go away and just make myself right.but thats impossible.i have to try and make myself right while living life at the same time. and i don't think i can do that. i'm so tired. everything is so draining, so much effort. i can't do this. 

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