instinct vs. logic

i don't know what to do...i feel completely upside-down....i had these dreams that were so ridiculous but the message in them felt so real. i feel like i need to do what they told me to do, like there is no choice.....but at the same time, i know that's complete insanity; dreams are just dreams they aren't messages or anything else. yet past experience says otherwise. none of this helps that im in the middle of an intense binge; not exactly thinking clearly here. i feel like i got lost, and so i've been trying to go back and figure out where i went wrong, why i made the choice that i made, but the more i look the less everything makes sense....i  just can't make sense of anything today! i am so confused; maybe it's the starving for the last couple of days, and then binging today, but i don't feel like that's it. the dreams, just everything about how i feel today is just screaming walk away. walk away before it's too late. i just feel it so strongly like i have to do this....nothing else makes sense anymore....i don't know what to do, i don't know whether to give in to this feeling or to fight it, and risk the hell that i know will come if i do.