just another day

i'm scared, because i feel like i'm on the verge of something. i mean it could be that my current plans to transfer halfway across the country will work out, but i feel like even if it doesn't i feel like something is going to happen that is totally life changing. but that could be because i am in a crazy rapid mixed state. i mean this morning, i could've taken on the world and then six hours later, i was crying my eyes out and i couldn't tell you what was wrong but it was wrong. and now, now i'm feeling some sort of  nervous anticipation for some unknown mind blowing occurrence. i don't feel ready. but then i'm never ready, i just make myself jump in. oh great, now i'm back to the crying jag.  isn't it lovely to be me