how long can you go?

i'm trying really hard to break my binge-starve-binge cycle, and i settled on restricting as the best method to do so. i tried to eat normally and i just found myself binging every single day. so i know that won't work. and i've tried restriction before, but it always felt like too much. the number was too high, and i just kept eating. but i've stuck to this for five days, so far so good. i'm trying to go thirty days without being a disgusting pig who eats everything in sight. i can't even think of the last time i went a whole thirty days without binging....its been a long time. so it'll be a big accomplishment. which will hopefully snowball into bigger accomplishments. i want this so much, and i'm trying so hard, i don't see how i can not succeed. i mean, i've been going out and people have been giving me drinks and food and candy, and i've still not gone above my limit once. i know that the longer i go, the harder it will become, but i feel in some way, it will be easier, because this habit of binging is going to be broken. maybe not completely. i know these things take time. but i just feel like i can change this. i just have to be as stubborn about this as i am about everything else. i have say i will and not budge. perhaps if i try hard enough, i can resist the urge forever...