i was all excited, that i'm doing something i feel like i can stick to, that i can break the whole binge-starve cycle. but then today i wake up and magically weigh half a pound more than i did yesterday....i hate my body, how it can do that to me. i didn't do anything wrong. anything that should cause that to happen. but it did. and now seeing the number go up, well its quite discouraging, and makes a girl just want to eat everything. so today is not going to be as easy as i thought. its going to be a long day of mentally talking myself out of throwing the towel in just because i had a small unexplained/unexpected gain. i have to go to work, where there will be food, and i have to go out and socialize where there will be even more food, and highly caloric beverages. and i don't even get to walk today. grr. i know though, that i can rise to the challenge and stick to the rules. i can and i will.
but this is still fucking bullshit.
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