i get drunk off of food. because what i do is i eat and eat and eat until it almost makes me sick, but not quite because then i won't get the luxury of having the food leave my body, and then i wait a little bit and repeat. and when i'm disgusted enough to muster up a little self control i stop eating period. for as long as i can, because i know once i eat something, i'll have to eat everything....and when that happens, it feels like i'm drunk. i'm lightheaded and sick and giddy and angry and sad....its like i'm swimming in emotions. and before it gets out of control, it can be quite pleasant....and then of course it turns ugly. i wish there was aa for food...12 steps to being clean and empty for life....i work everyday to stop this vicious cycle, and man that sure would be nice. i'll keep on dreaming....
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment